Life is chaos. That is one thing I am sure of as I stand outside in the sun. My bare feet dig into the moist soil and the Spring wind crackles against my hair. The sky’s dying light warms my cheeks and I breathe in its crispness, letting it crash against my lungs and tumble down my diaphram.
Life is chaos. Shouting bellows inside the house behind me. A tangle of words tremble in Venezuelan Spanish. My little brother has once again disappointed my mother. Life is chaos. I hear the weeping downstairs of the monster my sister has adopted in secret. The poor thing is frightened by a world that fears beings like him. Life is chaos because I can’t control it. I, Loli, can’t control the sun, the dirt, the wind that surrounds me. I can’t control the yelling inside my home or the Minotaur my sister Aziza has embraced. I can’t even control my own mind and the thoughts that entwine with my brain, convincing me I’m wrong, that I’m not good enough, that I’m...not...me. And that’s something I will have to endure. I peer at the clouds gliding across the sky. They’re so fluffy and orange now. Who could imagine they will eventually grow heavy with the sorrows of the world and pound against my roof? Who could envision the little sprouts underneath my feet sucking in that pain through their roots and growing taller will only be mowed down later on? Things can change so quickly. I blink and water shrouds my gaze. I turn back toward my home with the bellows, the monster, the disorder. Yes, life is chaos and I have to endure it, but that doesn’t mean there’s nothing I can do.
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